I Am Pissed

Okay…so I am pissed off.  The past few days I have been thinking about how bad hell is and how many people are going to hell.  Seriously though, can you think of anything, and I mean ANYTHING worse than hell.  We as Christians are NOT sharing the gospel as we are commissioned to do.  I can’t tell you the last time I heard from any pastor present a clear and concise gospel message.  SERIOUSLY WHAT IS THE PROBLEM HERE!  I don’t understand how it is unreasonable to take one or two minutes out of EVERY sermon taught to give a clear and concise gospel message.  Is it not worth the chance of possibly saving a person from eternal damnation!  I don’t understand…that’s it I don’t understand why it is not done.  Pastors are placed in a position where it is not taboo for them to talk about God, people come because they want to hear about God, so what are they afraid of!  Why will they not speak the truth of salvation through Jesus Christ clearly and simply every time you get a chance?  Why would I go out on a limb and invite someone who doesn’t know Christ to church when I am 98% sure that there will not be a clear gospel message presented.  Even if it doesn’t tie into whatever modern hip lesson that is being presented on such a day, even if it is awkward and weird to put it in at the end or something, is it not worth it.  And when I say all of this, this is not specific to just FBC, this goes to almost ever sermon I watch be it on YouTube, chapel at school (somewhat understandable there), retreats, or anywhere else.  But pastors are just people, and I believe full heartedly that every single Christian is also held to the same responsibility that pastors are, in that we need to share the good news of redemption through Christ.  Why are we not sharing the great news of salvation to every person we see.  Why do we strive to live a life of comfort and stability rather than going around franticly sharing the good news of salvation with every person!  Why do I not go up the guy at the gas station, or the kid on Xbox live and share the good news of Christ.  Why am I ashamed of my faith?  Why do I hide it in a box rather than taking the chance of helping someone know the Lord?  Josh Adams and I were talking about this and he told me this quote from well known atheist Penn; from Penn and Teller.  Penn states:  “How much do you have to hate someone to believe that everlasting life is possible and not tell them?”  That statement kind of just put me in my place.  Like why are we not living counter-culturally, focused completely on missions and spreading the word of the Lord.  Some may say: well there is a necessary step of relationship building before you should share the gospel.  Well then I say to you: why am I so passionate about sharing the word of Christ, yet I have friends that I have had since 3^rd grade whom I have never even invited to Church, let alone shared the gospel with.  What makes me sick to my stomach is the fact that I have been thinking and talking about this for days now, I prayed about this, I wrote about this; and I still will not share the gospel freely.  Why!?  I don’t understand what is holding me back.  Is it that my relationship with God is not strong enough, and I have guilt in my life that is keeping me from sharing the message of salvation?  Am I afraid of rejection?  Is it the fact that no other Christians are doing this, so it just feels wrong to do?  Is it that there are thousands of missions trips every year and the goal of these trips is to do good works and “plant seeds” rather than share the gospel?  I am sick, and I don’t know what to do about it.

- Zach